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Friday, March 7, 2014

1st First Friday Friend Day! Dominique Wnuk

Starting today is the 1st  First Friday Friend Day where every first Friday of the month I will feature a guest writer to share what makes them go "OM". I originally got this idea because I am surrounded by such fantastic, powerful and positive women that inspire me daily and as sisters we need to stick together and share with one another. 

This week I am honored to share Dominique Wnuk with you all. She is my cousin, my best friend since diapers and a soul mate. She's an artist, photographer, wife, a go getter and just plain fabulous. I could go on and on but I'm gonna let her take the reigns.

Bright Pink 
By Dominique Wnuk

 Before I get started, I want to invite you all to join me in wishing my favorite motivator, influencer, Namaste-er, singer, songwriter, dancer, sister, cousin, BFF a very happy birthday! Here is to the best year ever! Love you.

“Anyone can hide. Facing up to things, working through them, that's what makes you strong.”
― Sarah Dessen
On her blog, Angela shares with us many empowering tips. Ideas to set goals, shift consciousness and live abundantly – all as a means to come from a place of "yes."
When she asked me to share some thoughts with you about living intentionally my mind raced on topics. I can make a killer to-do list, health-ify all kinds of recipes, reverse engineer goals like a pro, teach you techniques to take an award-winning photo, point you to work out routines and pin the most stunning wedding you can imagine on Pinterest (even though I'm already married). I'm always happy to share knowledge and gravitate towards learning new things from those around me.  I'd love to write about any of those things (and hope Angela has me back to do so).
Let's start here though. The aforementioned to-do list. I want to tell you about a task that was lingering on my to-do list that I recently crossed off. It was a unique accomplishment; A monkey on my back that brought with it fear. That bad energy has four letters – BRCA, a hereditary gene mutation that can predispose carriers to breast and ovarian cancer. Women with harmful mutations in either BRCA1 or BRCA2 have risk of breast cancer that is about five times the normal risk, and a risk of ovarian cancer that is about ten to thirty times normal (source). Having family members with the confirmed mutation, I could be a carrier. Onto my to-do list went "get tested for the BRCA mutation."


And there it sat. A commitment I was hiding from. I never made the appointment, telling myself if I had it I might believe myself into being sick or that it cost too much to get tested.  But then another cousin of mine reached out to share her experience with the testing, the information she was provided by her genetic counselors and about how positive her whole experience was, I couldn't hide from this any longer.
Here was a test that would identify my risk proactively, before it ever became life-threatening. Arming myself with knowledge, my risk and lifestyle changes is not something I should fear, in fact, it is smart and empowering. It will keep me around for my family. Once I shifted my consciousness around that blessing it became an opportunity. Being tested for the BRCA1 gene is an opportunity that was not afforded to women in generations before me.
And with that, I called my friends in the genetics department at a nearby hospital and scheduled an appointment. Here's a list of the risk for those who should consider the testing.
  • A personal history of breast cancer at age 50 or younger
  • A personal or family history of male breast cancer
  • A personal or family history of bilateral breast cancer (cancer in both breasts)
  • A personal history of ovarian cancer
  • A parent, sibling, child, grandparent, grandchild, uncle, aunt, nephew, niece or first cousin diagnosed with breast cancer at age 45 or younger
  • A mother, sister, daughter, grandmother, granddaughter, aunt, niece or first cousin diagnosed with ovarian cancer
  • A family history of both breast and ovarian cancers on the same side of the family (either mother's or father's side of the family)
I wanted to share this with you all as a means to encourage other strong, smart and beautiful women to consider their risk factors, do their research and get this test if you're at risk. To get started researching your family history here is a great list of questions to ask. 
Let's address the elephant in the room – the cost. If you're afraid of the costs here are a couple of tips. First, ask your genetic counselor for the insurance code, then call and check with your insurance carrier what the costs are before the appointment. My plan covered most of the testing due to my risk level and that I knew which strain my family member had been confirmed to have. And, the genetic testing center even provided paperwork saying that they would alert me of any cost exceeding $375 out of pocket before proceeding with reviewing the test. If you need assistance there is an amazing charity that Christina Applegate started called Right Action for Women where you can apply to obtain funding: http://rightactionforwomen.org/. Here's another great list of resources: http://www.brightpink.org/i-am-high-risk/financial-resources/  There are resources available to help you take control.

The visit itself entails a consultation with a genetics counselor who reviews your risk, discusses lifestyle changes and what steps could be taken for my breast and ovarian health of carriers and explains the screening.  The screen is a blood test or a saliva test. My results took 3-4 weeks to come in.
My results came back negative – there is no mutation present. And I am so, so grateful. However, there are still lifestyle changes I am enacting because my risk is still higher given my family history. Those measures include upping my exercise routine, changing my diet to include more fruits and vegetables (here is a great grocery shopping list), reducing chemical usage in my home, and getting a mammogram and MRI this year to get a baseline. Here are some more amazing tips: http://www.breastcancerfund.org/assets/pdfs/tips-fact-sheets/1-sheet-tip-cards.pdf
This may be a bit different than Angela's typical posts. I understand cancer can be a difficult and scary topic. But what I'm talking about is the bright side, because I truly believe there is one; the opportunity to take action. Spend the time doing the research, talking to other women and encouraging other women to take actions themselves. We have to support each other on and this is an amazing place to start.

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Sunday, March 2, 2014

Keep Calm & Enjoy the Silence

Early this week I watched a 2 hour special on the evolution of our galaxy, planet and human beings on the History Channel. It was fascinating. The thing they claim to be the catalyst in our evolution from the so called "monkey to man" is the larynx. (where its placed and how it works to create sound) They claim that from this new tool is where we created language which helped our species survive. We could now communicate danger from afar.

The larynx and the vocal chords have become one of our most important tools on a daily basis evolution or not. We use language effortlessly as we communicate to one another. Our personality is wrapped up in the words we speak and our emotions are released through sound. Sometimes we don't recognize this until it's gone.

Over the last week I have been on vocal rest due to laryngitis. My vocals chords were attacked by serious inflammation after having a cold. Not being able to speak has been quite the struggle as I'm not able to express myself as I would normally choose through words and sound. Instead I had to mime and mouth everything to those around me. When doing this you quickly realize who is good at charades and who is not. If this happens to you, find the good ones and have them be your voice ;) I tried to make the best of it since crying or feeling depressed isn't going to make me any better.  As my voice progressively got better and I could speak a little but not too much to strain my chords. This is when I realized how to pick and choose my words effectively. How can I get my message across with as little words as possible? To add to that, when I found myself frustrated and wanting to yell or maybe say things that aren't necessary I actually had the time to catch myself before I caused any damage to myself or others.



As a singer having this illness takes it's toll on the heart. It's a very personal and intimate matter. Awful thoughts raced through my mind. What if I never sing again? What if my voice is damaged? What if I lose my job to this?  Taking a singer's voice is like taking their soul and it can play lots of tricks on our minds. I was lucky to have the support of my fellow singers who understand what I was going through. It was their love and patience  and constant reassurance that helped me stay calm.



I am one week and a day into the healing process and am not 100% but I'm getting there. Trying to find the silver lining in everything can be quite difficult at times but I'm going to say this experience has taught me to choose my words wisely, to listen intently, to care for my body better and most of all patience. Sometimes time is the only key to healing. 



OM....

Thursday, February 27, 2014

Animal Love

Today I wanted to honor our animal friends and recognize them as piers we share this beautiful world with.  The first video may be a bit confrontational to some. (the other videos will make you smile) Veggie eaters VS Meat Eaters is commonly a hot topic. I don't think there is anything wrong with eating meat. It's perfectly natural to hunt in the animal kingdom. The difference is how we have become desensitized to the moral treatment of our fellow friends. If we reconnect we have the opportunity to learn and grow from them. 


Sensitize ourselves to the injustice. Animals cannot speak for themselves

We are all interconnected. Every mother is the same in how protect and care for our babies. This video is a perfect example of that and how we can honor and help one another in need.


We protect the innocent and so do they. This dog protects this mothers unborn baby from a big burly man.

Love knows no boundaries. A lot of us know the love and bond that happens when we have a pet. This video show the beauty of inter species friendships.  We are all a part of one love.


Happy Thursday friends. Namaste.

Monday, February 24, 2014

The Spontaneous Soul's Biggest Challenge

I recently read an article called 10 Regrets Spontaneous People Will Never Have. As I was reading I felt proud to admit I have met all 10 but it made me think...

http://elitedaily.com/life/never-say-never-10-regrets-spontaneous-people-dont/

Over the last year I have been living a beautiful life that I have created but even the greatest gifts come with challenges.

My challenge... the art of being still. For the first time in my life I feel responsible, stable and calm. I yearn to start a family with my beautiful husband but I wonder if my wandering spirit will be able to handle this lifestyle. Although I'm proud to call myself spontaneous, the itch for always wanting more can be my worst enemy.



Why do we constantly crave more even when what we have is enough?

I know the grass isn't greener. Ive been on the other side living day by day never knowing where the path will lead and though it was fun it was often lonely and confusing as I never set any roots.

I've always been one to to my face my fear in the eyes. Could settling down be the greatest fear of a spontaneous soul? And thinking back to that article could the one regret the spontaneous soul have is to "not commit" to something?

Contemplating on this, I realized being married, responsible, stable and having a family is the most spontaneous I have ever been. I took a leap  making a commitment to the greatest love I have ever felt for another human being.

I wont lie. Being married has challenged me, mostly because of the mourning of my single self and the freedom I felt being able to pick up and go wherever and whenever I choose. (The mourning of "me" into the birth of "we") But, as time progresses and I get to look into the eyes of the most beautiful man I know each day and enjoy the riches around me I realize that I created this from my spontaneity. I recognize this responsible, stable and calm lifestyle with the possibility of family as the boldest statement I have ever made in my life. I am staring straight into the eyes of my biggest fear. It's scary but magnificent.



They say the spontaneous soul lives life with "no regrets" in mind at all times. I can relate to that being the truth. Not living my life as a married woman and one day mother while still maintaining my sense of wonder would be my greatest regret.

Here's to spontaneity and having it all!




Monday, February 17, 2014

Dream it into Reality

In case you didn't know already I am "geeked" out on goals! So much so I make it my personal responsibility to share my wealth of knowledge from the lessons I've learned passed down to me from many great mentors.

Those in my life will tell you "when she declares it, it happens". Although the declaration of the goal is the most powerful there are added steps that make it probable.

Dream it
Be specific
Declare it
Take action
Enjoy the ride....



Daydreaming is fun but not always productive. I enjoy visual stimulation so when I create my goals I love to make a vision board. I use Brian Tracy's goal setting tools by creating my goals into 3 catagories.

Health
Career
Personal

Then I create 1-3 goals per year catagory

10 year
5 year 
1 year  

I write my goals as if they have already happened.
"My husband and I own 1 house in the USA and 1 house in Tuscany by June 2024"

This speaks to the universe as a powerful manifestation.

3 years ago I wrote on my vision board

"I have backpacked through Europe by Dec 2015"
"I have met the love of my life by Oct 2012"
 
I met my husband while backpacking in Italy in Oct 2012

Of course you don't have to make a vision board or write them down but it does help as to not lose sight of the things you want to accomplish. But if it's not your thing I suggest talking about what you want in life to everyone. Share... Share...Share...

August 2012 I had a profound realization that I  was ready to have it all. I declared I wanted to marry the love of my life, start a family, live near the ocean in a beautiful home and be financially stable  doing what I love to do... Sing! I repeated this inside my head daily and I shared with everyone I talked to. I had forgotten all about the vision board I made a year prior but I continued to put it into the universe until one day I opened my eyes and saw I had it all.

I traveled Italy, met my now husband, got a full time gig in a theater near the beach. Sometimes I still have to pinch myself. Sometimes I can't help but tear up at the magic I created with 1st a dream and then my words. I have many stories like this because I BELIEVE in making dreams reality.



If you could be, do and have anything in the world without fail...
Who would you be? What would you do? What would you have?

THINK BIG! BE BOLD!

 

Of course to see the change one must first be the change.. So, here are my goals/dreams for the next 10 years.

Health
10 Year I grow my own vegetables in the backyard of my home to feed my family with. By April 2024
5 Year I visit India and study meditation and yoga in an ashram for 30 days. By March 2019
1 Year  I am in the shape of my life and pick up choreography fast. By Jan 2015
1 Year I can do a handstand without a wall, do the splits and climb a rope by Jan 2015

Career
10 Year Lorenzo and I own and produce our own dinner theater. By June 2024
5 Year I play the role of Maureen in Rent on Broadway. By May 2019
1 Year I open for Jason Mraz with my own songs. By March 2015
1 Year I have a video of myself singing on youtube that goes viral in a positive way by Jan 2015

Personal
10 Year Lorenzo and I  own 2 houses. 1 in the US and 1 in Italy. By June 2024
10 Year
I speak at a TED talk about turning dreams into reality and having it all. By May 2024
5 Year I write and release an inspirational book. By April 2019
5 Year Lorenzo and I are superhero parents of 1 with a healthy and happy baby. By May 2017
5 Year I speak and write fluent Italian By Jan 2019
1 Year I successfully coach and inspire young women in my community. By Jan 2015
1 Year I have 100 followers of my Blog. By Jan 2014
1 Year Lorenzo and I travel to 5 new cities on our time off

 To continue on the inspiration train it doesn't end here. After I have created my vision I make a board for my own personal visual stimulation. Then to take it one step further this year I will be breaking all of my goals down to daily tasks that will create measurable results to achieving that which I created. I made a chart in Exel with an already made template for daily chores. I havent done this before so I look forward to the powerful results I know it will have. If just the shear sharing and action of a goal can be magic this is with out a doubt going to be Alchemy and I look forward to the results.

Last but not least.. Remember to enjoy the ride. It's all a game that we've created. Have fun and love every moment of the journey.










Tuesday, February 11, 2014

When The Curtain Opens

Performing is in my blood. It was what I knew I wanted to do from the time I could speak/sing. Why? I'm not always sure. 

There have been many times in my life I've even tried to giving it up, convincing myself I should have a "grown up job" but it always finds me. Through the good the bad and the ugly I have always found my way back to the stage. Being there teaches me and heals me and makes people smile. It's what I love to do.

Last week we opened the show after a month of  long and grueling rehearsals. We were all ready. I love opening night as it creates the butterflies in the tummy and the thumping heart in my chest wanting to put on the best show we can for those that came to see us. Only on this day I was going through a really tough personal situation. Normally I would go into detail but in this case I would like to just put it behind me. However this situation took up most of my day and had me emotionally drained. I could have easily allowed it to ruin the moment my cast and I had all been waiting for.

Everyone was smiling with the jitters as we rouged our cheeks and lips and curled our hair prepping for the curtain to rise. I found myself annoyed. Then from the depths within I heard my consciousness.

 "Be present! Enjoy this moment! Enjoy these people."

 I was reminded that there is no other moment than right now and what an amazing moment it was. I get to do what I love every night. I also knew that I had to be present in each moment on stage to give the best performance I could. I chose right then and there to let my problems go and enjoy the smiling faces around me and allow the jitters to tickle my tummy again. 

The curtain opened to a full house with bright eyes filled with excitement to see us do what we do best. Entertain! And that we did! We had a wonderful opening show and I was able to translate all of my previous frustrations into love through music and dance. I was reminded of my blessings and reminded of the choice we always have to be happy even when things aren't going as planned.  Hearing and seeing the sound and sight of that beautiful crowd reminded me of why I do what I do. I make make people smile and forget about their problems. But what they don't know is that they do the same for me. 







Monday, February 3, 2014

Vulnurable

Vulnerability...
a. Susceptible to physical or emotional injury.
b. Susceptible to attack: "We are vulnerable both by water and land, without either fleet or army" (Alexander Hamilton).
c. Open to censure or criticism; assailable.
2.
a. Liable to succumb, as to persuasion or temptation.
b. Games In a position to receive greater penalties or bonuses in a hand of bridge. In a rubber, used of the pair of players who score 100 points toward game.
(definition by the free dictionary by farlax)


By definition this doesn't seem like the most appealing thing to do and yet it is the key to the connection with one another. It is the necessary tool in our kit to share whole heartedly.




There are times being vulnerable is easy. Times where all we want to do is share with another. I'm willing to bet in this case the other person was being vulnerable as well. It's a lot more challenging when the other party isn't open. "Why should I share with them?" you might ask.

Remember when we were little and we were told "sharing is caring"? When we allow ourselves to open up to others it gives others the opportunity to be open and it starts a trickle effect. I was once told by a life coach that there are no secrets. We are all connected whether we like it or not and if you are able to really be with a person all is known. Maybe that's why we avoid so very often really "being" with one another. We tend to talk about the weather instead.

Through my experience sharing is the most powerful tool we have because when we share we learn from each other, help each other and most of all know that we are not alone.

Now time for me to be vulnerable... Writing this blog is a challenge for me. Not because of the commitment it takes to write and post each week but the sheer vulnerability it takes to share with all of you. It's the fear of looking bad and the fear of others using my vulnerability against me and the fear that others know too much about me. Of course I am the creator of this blog and I can post whatever I choose. However, I know that the key to connect with all of you is to write honestly and from my heart. Of course this isn't just in my blog it's in my life. I hate being vulnerable even though I know the power of it. It's a continuous practice and requires one step forward at a time.

A lot of people may argue that my job as a performer requires me to be vulnerable as I get up on the stage every night to sing. To a degree they are correct. I continuously put myself and my talent on the judging panel. You'd be surprised at how easy it is to hide behind the character on stage. Singing my own songs though is another story.This is a practice that takes courage but being vulnerable with the people in my life takes even more courage.

I encourage you to take this step with me and allow yourself to open up to those around you. Sometimes that may be sharing with someone or asking for help, admitting that your wrong or even apologizing.




Monday, December 16, 2013

My Favorite Things

What a perfect time of year to reflect on gratitude for the simple things in life that make us happy...

These are a few of My Favorite Things... (not in particular order)

1.  resting my head on my husbands chest and night and waking up to his face each morning.
2. Standing behind the curtain on stage and watching it open to the crowd
3. walking on a crisp autumn day watching squirrels
4. sipping on an iced vanilla coffee through a straw.
5. singing my heart out every night and playing dress up for a living
6. home cooked Italian meals by my husband while I set the table and sitting down to eat together   each day.
7. little girls with starry eyes that come to the show and give me a hug after.
8. sharing my own music with an intimate crowd.
9. taking long walks holding my husbands hand.
10. exploring foreign countries and making friends around the world
11. driving with the windows down with no where to go on a perfect sunny day
12. practicing head stands and hand stands on the grass in a park
13. my ukulele
14. making to do lists to organize my thoughts with color pens and highlighters
15. daily kisses and I love you's from my husband at random
16. taking photos of interesting fire hydrants
17. the autumn season and all that comes with it, colored leaves, pumpkins, cider...
18. yoga
19. treasure hunting in thrift shops
20. collecting costumes 2nd hand
21. good food, good wine, good music and great company
22. having my feet rubbed
23. candle light
24. magic
25. learning from nature
26. visiting with my family talking and playing cards together
27. traveling by train
28. John Mayer
29. listening to stories told by my elders
30. volunteering for local organizations with my husband

What are a few of your favorite things?

Sunday, October 6, 2013

Facebook Dilemma

Facebook.... To post or not to Post?

Why is it we post on Facebook? I've often thought of this question over the years. First I used Facebook to reconnect with old friends and to stay in touch with the people I care about. Then I used it to market myself as a singer inviting everyone to the gigs I was playing and share my YouTube videos. Eventually I found myself posting like a madwomen documenting every moment in my life.

Sometime last year while I was still living in LA, I was out with a couple of my girlfriends at the beautiful Getty Museum. It's a gorgeous world famous art museum at the top of a hill that over looks all of Los Angeles. Each wing represented a different form of art and it also includes a gorgeous garden to walk through or sit down in. My girlfriends and I were being silly and taking pictures as we enjoyed the vibrant sunny day. That's when I found myself compulsively taking pictures and video of every moment I deemed as awesome and posted them immediately to Facebook. I was doing this so much so that I forgot to be in the present moment that was laughing with my friends, talking and enjoying the view. Then I heard a voice, "What are you doing? Why are posting on Facebook when you could be enjoying the moment you are trying so hard to document for everyone else?" In that moment I couldn't answer. It was as if I was completely addicted. But to what?

(a picture posted from the Getty)

After chewing on it for a few days I realized I was addicted to creating this image of myself for others so that they would "like it" or think "WOW, her life is so cool!" Plain and simple... I wanted to look good. Which is fairly easy to do if you smile, click and post.

I became angry with myself and in return angry with all the "happy posters". If I felt full of shit then they must be too. I stopped posting for a while focusing on being in the moment. That was an incredible experience. I found myself engaging with my friends. I was actually listening to them and enjoying their presence and enjoying what we were doing instead of focusing on "hold on... let me share this with several hundred people I barely know"


I started posting again in September 2012 while I was traveling Russia and Italy but my posts were for different reasons. I was traveling alone so I made a promise to post frequently to let my mom know I was safe. After returning to the states I didn't post as much, just a little to keep my friends updated on all the changes that were happening in my life as I was moving to the other coast for a theater gig and newly engaged.


As I adjusted to the changes in my life I would post occasionally. Mostly to tell my friends how much I miss them. There were a lot of emotional times but I'm not one to post complaints or feelings on Facebook. So I just didn't post. What was the point really?

Then I came across an article that stated people who post  "happy posts" tend to be happier people. Hmmm... could this be true? Most articles disagree with this notion. I decided to try it on. I posted more often the "happy times" in my day. I did start to feel happier. Why? My conclusion on this is that by purposly finding those moments made me more aware of them. However I also found that by posting too often felt draining. 

So now what? I'm left with this....

Post if it makes you happy but only that. Life is happening in the NOW. No matter how many pictures, quotes or posts you have it can't be more precious than the quality time you have with those actual moments. Don't post to compare your life to someone else. Virtual life is not real life. Real life is what's happening right now.



So... To post or not to post? It's all perspective. Be honest with yourself and be conscious. Choose what makes you happy then let go of judgement.
 

What are your thoughts?

Friday, September 27, 2013

One Intention at a Time

My seven days of straight meditation and setting intention is now coming to a close. When I started this I was actually at a loss of power allowing my feelings take control of me. That morning I woke up early enough to see the sunrise changed my entire perspective. It helped me come back to my center and recognize what was important and inspired me to create my perspective each and every day. This past week has been so rich with experiences and my heart has been filled with love and joy that I feel I can spread to others. I feel like a butterfly that has emerged out of her cocoon. 


There was a time I thought that if I could just be and do all of the things I think make me a better person at the same time how perfect life could be. If only I could be Super Woman. What this experience has taught me is that just creating one intention and fulfilling it my life can be richer. Instead of trying to do everything all at once I picked an intention each day due to what came up for me in meditation. My intuition led the way perfectly. Focusing on one intention at a time and immersing myself in it made a world of difference.


Now, just because my week long experiment has concluded doesn't mean I am done.I will take this practice on in my life from now on but as far as this blog goes I am going to document new experiences as I move forward with more soul enriching experiments.


 Hmmmm... what will this look like? I don't know but I'm excited to see and share it with you!

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Savoring Each Moment

A much needed sleep in session started my morning off. I slept until the very moment I had to leave the house. It felt good. However I could see that the state I was in yesterday could easily be repeated if I didn't give myself my "OM" time. So I quickly got a few things done and headed home.

Starving I started to make my lunch the moment I walked through the door. Tacos! Heated corn tortillas, black beans, onions, cheddar cheese, hot sauce and cilantro. Yum! I don't know about you, but I have a habit of watching TV when I eat. I also have the habit of eating fast as if it's a chore that I have to get done. As I approached the couch to turn the television on I paused as the imaginary light bulb above my head lit up and I heard my inner voice. "Savor you're meal". That's when I looked outside and ackowledged I have been graced with another beautiful fall day. I picked up my plate of scrumpteous tacos and my tall glass of water and stepped out onto my patio. I sat down and savored my meal.



What was that like you ask? Divine. I ate slowly. I could feel the soft tortilla on my lips as I bit into it. I could fully taste the burst of flavor of delicious beans and cheddar with the combination of the sweet tortilla, the tangy hot sauce and gentle bite of the sweet onion. I was hyper aware of every flavor and every texture my wonderful meal had to offer. As I took a sip of my tall glass of cold water I allowed myself to fully enjoy it's fresh simple flavor and  its cooling liquid substance. It was like my tongue was going for a dip in the pool on a hot summer day.



As I finished my lunch I took the time to reflect how this experience could carry on into the rest of my day. "Of course!" exclaimed my inner voice, "Savor each moment". I shut my eyes and felt the warm sun on my eyelids and listened to the soft chirping of the birds and insects in the trees.



I look forward to taking this intention with me to work as I continue to rehearse this afternoon and perform this evening. Savoring the moments I am learning, conversing with others, putting my makeup on and doing my hair. Savoring each moment I walk onto the stage or change a costume. Savoring my sweet husband's presence and his kiss. Today is going to be delicious.

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Lessons

Yesterday as my day came to a close I felt filled with love, joy and appreciation for my daily gifts. When I originally set my intention for yesterday it was to be grateful and at peace but it quickly turned into "how many things can I be grateful for?", which turned into looking at everything that came into my day as a gift. I have to say it was an incredibly fun day to receive so many gifts! I couldn't help but giggle out loud. At one point one of my cast mates said, "What are you laughing at?" It was my special little secret at the time.



Maybe it was because my "being" was someone who is receiving gifts or maybe because people are kind or maybe because it was my pure intention to see the world that way but it seemed like people were more generous than usual. Looking at every moment as a shiny new present is quite an experience.

A few things I recieved:

*lunch prepared by my husband served on our outside patio
*all of the easiest harmonies in the music I have to learn for the show
*a part in a really cool duet in the show
*a courtesy call from my closest cousin sharing that by reading my blog she is inspired to set intentions for her days. 
*an invitation to a cast mate's birthday party
*a night out with my husband and friends


 Today I have to be honest I didn't get up early and give myself time to just be. I woke up starting my "to do" list right away. Cleaning, running errands and going to rehearsal. By the time rehearsal was over it was call time at the theater. I found myself easily frustrated and very challenged to create an intention while on the move. This was a fantastic lesson because I can clearly see how important it truly is to make that time for myself to just breathe and look within and set intention.


Today I felt my time was not honored by myself and by others. It is true of myself and therefore I projected it on to my view of the current events of my day. I allowed it to affect my mood, my words and my over all being. I was able to see this during a vent session to a couple of dear friends. They were a beautiful mirror for me to see my own reflection. I found myself apologizing for my passionate outburst of emotions. Of course, my friends were loving and understanding. That's when I realized I need to be the same with myself. Within seconds I was able to feel light again.

Today's lesson, always honor myself first so I can effectively give to others and if I slip forgive and move on. It makes for such a better day.
 

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Daily Gifts

It's 9:30am and time for me to get up and start what looks to be a very long day ahead of me as I will head in to rehearsals for my show at 11am until 6pm then perform a show until 10pm. I know that I need to collect myself and get ready.

First collect myself... I throw on some sweats and grab my yoga mat and head out to my porch. The air is fresh and the birds are chirping. There is a light breeze that makes the leaves on the trees dance. I sit down crossed legged with my hands in my lap and close my eyes. Inhale. Exhale. This is my time and it's the most important part of my day. This is where I relax my body and listen to nature. I am calm. As I sit longer my mind starts to wander recollecting memories of yesterday and judging what it was like. Then I hear this beautiful sound like thousands of soft butterfly wings. It's the leaves dancing in the wind again. What a beautiful sound. It brings me back to the present moment of me sitting in what is. The sun is shining and the energy is calm but there my mind goes once again to everything that I need to do before I go to work and then continues to think about work. Inhale. Exhale. I recognize what I need to do and say thank you. I reassure myself that it will get done but not right now. Sitting still is what needs to be done right now. To help me with this I start imagining every thought (word or image) in a bubble. I recognize it then let it float away. This seems to work very well as if I am de-cluttering my mind one bubble at a time. Eventually there were no more bubbles. Just me on my porch listening to the leaves dance in the wind.



Sitting down to meditate has become the most important part of the day as it gets me to my center. I don't always sit for a long period of time. Sometimes it's five minutes, sometimes it's twenty. No matter how long, it's valuable. It also allows me to be with myself to know exactly what intention to set as well. I found myself peaceful and grateful during meditation and chose to continue this through out my day. Being at work all day can be tiring and sometimes being around the same people day in and day out with long hours can wear on peoples nerves. Of course it's not intentional but being tired and worked a lot can easily contribute to this. So I am going to be intentional.Today I am peaceful and I am grateful. Peaceful with everything as it is and grateful for all the gifts I have. I am blessed with an amazing job singing and dancing every night and I am surrounded with amazing talented people everyday. I have the most incredible husband who loves and supports me and I live on the beach. Most of all, I am grateful to be alive! Thank you life for the opportunity to sit still and listen to the leaves dance in the wind. I know that it truly is a gift.



Now as I continue my day look forward to what many other gifts this day has to offer....


Monday, September 23, 2013

Patience

Each morning I set an intention my day feels rich. Yesterday was day three. I set the intention and meditated that everything is perfect and so am I. How did this go? It started off perfect and comfortable. My husband and I set off for lunch to try something new. I had mentioned that soup in a bread bowl sounded perfect for the gloomy first day of fall. I had the perfect place in mind as I have been wanting to try it for quite sometime. We got there only to find that it was closed. No worries...Everything is perfect. We drove to South Myrtle Beach to explore new restaurants only to find a bunch of chains with fried bar food and over priced  menus because they are on the beach. We chose not to eat at any of them. By this time we were very hungry and slightly frustrated. That's when I reminded myself once again everything is perfect. I have to say,when I did this I couldn't help but laugh at how perfectly I was being challenged since my mind kept wanting to find something wrong.

Finally we gave up the search for something original and headed to a sandwich place near our home. Interesting enough they had soup in a bread bowl. By surrendering I ended up getting exactly what I wanted. It's amazing how many little lessons you can learn on a daily basis through the small things in life just by setting intentions and meditating on them. What a gift to be able to re-create each and every day!

I awoke gently this morning with the sun gleaming through my window. It was another gorgeous day! The air is fresh and crisp. It's as if the season itself knew exactly when it was we call it autumn. My husband plays soccer every Monday so we got dressed and headed out the door. We stopped to get an iced pumpkin spice latte on the way which always makes me feel cozy on a fresh fall day.


Since it was so beautiful out I wanted to sit next to the field and watch him do what he loves so much. I set out my yoga mat under a tree and sipped on my iced coffee. My heart filled with such love as I watched him run across the field handling the soccer ball with his feet effortlessly. To do this with such ease there must be hours upon hours of practice as with anything you want to become good at. This inspired me to study my Italian. I have a goal to be conversational with his family by January and I'm not even close. So, I got out my notebook and flash cards and got to studying. The combination of being outside, watching my love play soccer and studying something I enjoy allowed me to feel such peace and accomplishment. I took my time enjoying each moment.



Eventually I found myself getting frustrated when I would get the same words and phrases continuously wrong. Then I heard a little voice in my head as if talking to a child. "Patience".



I exhaled. Yes, patience that is my intention for the day it is what I will meditate on as well. I forget sometimes that I am learning and to be patient with myself. When I ran my marathon it took me 6 months to train. I didn't just wake up one day run a marathon and I can't just wake up one day and speak a foreign language either. As I sat there reflecting on patience I could see how many things in my life I struggle with due to my lack of patience. I am currently nursing my right foot back to health from an injury that progressively got worse since February. I have been mad at my foot for not healing faster and frustrated with the whole process. How can I expect to heal if I'm not even handling my spirit with care? Patience. I found these quotes that say it perfectly...



So, for now I just breathe and enjoy what is now. By the time Lorenzo was done playing his game I had surpassed my own expectations with little struggle. I memorized over one hundred words! As far as my foot goes I will take it one day at a time and stop focusing on a month from now and trust that by keeping a healthy attitude while I wait for it to heal will greater the result. 

Sunday, September 22, 2013

Everything Is Perfect

As I opened my eyes to see the clock I was quite shocked to see it was almost noon.  I don't usually do this but yesterday I had 4 hours of sleep before I started my day at sunrise. I went through my day experiencing life as it came and had an amazing day with my husband. We went for breakfast, a bike ride, swimming, went to a party and finished the evening off with a show. I couldn't have asked for a better day and it was all due to setting my intention early that morning. Be in the moment and love freely and openly. Anytime my mind went in another direction I reminded myself of my intention and took the actions of only that intention. It made for a beautiful full day.

However life always balances itself out. My day yesterday was filled with wonderful activity on a lack of sleep and although I enjoyed each moment by the time I got home I couldn't keep my eyes open. The moment my head hit the pillow I fell into a deep sleep.

Today it's gray and windy outside, the energy is lethargic and my house is a mess. It's the perfect yin to my yang. Normally I would judge myself for sleeping half the day away and try to put everything in order but not today!



Today's meditation:

Everything is perfect just as it is and so am I...




Saturday, September 21, 2013

Good Morning Sunshine

I have recently dove into my yoga philosophy studies and have been graced with the perfect teacher for me in this moment. I have been studying the yoga sutras and going deep inside myself with meditation.


At first what happens as I sit still is I struggle to just be. Be in the moment that is. My mind races to and from the past and the future. I create stories based off of my emotions or "what if" possibilities. I found myself to have a lot of stored anger which makes me uncomfortable so I start to judge myself for it. My fight or flight response has been activated and I want to get up and literally run away! Then I hear a bird in the distance... and Whoosh! I'm brought back to the present moment. There is nothing in the present moment that is threatening. I'm in a peaceful room with other yogis doing the same thing. There is no sound but the sounds of cars driving by and birds chirping in the trees. I can now smile in the moment as I realize that is all there is. Right here. Right now.The images of my memories and thoughts are not in reality.

This is a powerful realization I struggle to remember on a day to day basis as I get caught up in my feelings and judgements. I forget I have a choice in how I perceive each moment. I forget to note the blessings in my life. Meditation helps me do that but keeping the commitment to meditate each day seems to still be a struggle. Maybe because I avoid the uncomfortable feelings I have to face...

Last night I didn't sleep much as I tossed and turned feeling anxious about god knows what. At 6am I realized I was not going to fall back asleep. Then like a giddy little girl I realized I can watch the sunrise and I live a mile from the beach! I threw on my yoga pants a sweat shirt and a scarf, knotted my hair on top of my head, grabbed a towel off I went.



As I sat on the beach the tide was high and the energy was serene. The sun slowly peeked it's full round majesty above the water. There is something very magical to experience staring straight at the sun as it greets the day. I allowed myself to bath in its rays, shut my eyes and listen to the waves crash along the shore. The sound of water floating over the seashells was like a soft rain. This made me smile. I set my intention for the day to be present in each moment and love openly and freely.



Each moment I experienced had something rich for me feel, to enjoy and to learn from as long as I was present. Of course my mind wandered now and then but by allowing myself to bask in natures beauty it brought me back each time.


I was inspired today to do this each day. Meaning to find the beauty in each moment. To help me with this I will use my camera as a tool to look for it and capture it to share my daily meditations with you for the next week.

Watching the waves this beautiful morning I noticed I could observe the ones in the distance but it was the water in front of me that gave me such peace and joy as it softly glided onto the sand, across the seashells and onto my feet :)







Sunday, September 1, 2013

When the Student is Ready the Teacher Will Come...

When the student is ready the teacher will come... I can't tell you how many times this has rang true for me but I can tell you it's a lot. I find myself a student once again with such gratitude.



Since moving to a new area I have been on the prowl for my new yoga community. However it wasn't until I was truly hungry for it did it show up.  About 2 months ago I chose to practice yoga every day to create intention for not only my health and my body's well being but for pure manifestation. I wanted to find the perfect studio for me with the perfect mentor for me, not knowing exactly what I wanted to learn but knowing I was ready to delve deeper into my practice once again with a guide. I started practicing with this intention in the forefront of my mind, about 4-5 days later I run into a woman wearing yoga clothes and a peace sign on her shirt. She intrigued me being the first of her kind I have seen since being here. I started asking her questions about wear she practiced and told her I had been manifesting my new yoga community. She was so generous with her information and excited for me to visit the studio she practiced at and loved so dearly. I knew with this kind of love this studio had to be right for me. I went a couple weeks later and immediately signed up for a month's package.

When I walked into the studio it immediately felt like home. It was so cozy and peaceful. The first two weeks I went everyday trying each class to see what I connected with. Each class being beautiful and rich with yoga philosophy I couldn't wait to learn more. When I took my yoga teacher training  we touched on this wisdom but my mentor then was a highly physical teacher (which was perfect for me then) so I didn't dive into it as much as I'd have liked. The classes at this new studio were much slower paced than I had been used to in the past so I found my mind racing and my ego wanting to do more. This is when I realized it was is exactly what I needed. I need to learn to slow down and get in touch. The teacher I connected with the most is the owner of the studio, a wife, a mother and a philosophy junkie so to speak :) I knew fairly quickly she was the one I had been manifesting to teach me and it had only been a few weeks from the time I started creating this  powerful intention.

When I approached her about this she was completely receptive, intrigued and excited for the opportunity. As a teacher myself I know the opportunity to teach or mentor another is also an opportunity to learn and grow as a teacher. As she guides me in my yoga philosophy studies and meditations I will be helping her with the studio. What a beautiful exchange!

She currently has me studying the yoga sutras. She has asked me to pick a few to work on directly in my life and report which ones I will be working on and share my challenges and what I have learned from them. We will meet every other week for discussion and lessons. What a gift! Thank you.







When the student is ready the teacher will come....

What knowledge are you hungry for? Remember teachers come in all forms...

Namaste

Stay tuned for my lessons with the yoga sutras...


Sunday, August 18, 2013

Go with the Flow & Ride the Wave

I'd like to think of myself as a person that just goes with the flow but the truth of the matter is I've been a person that changes a lot and seems to kick a little in the process. I'm an artist and a yoga instructor so I am constantly practicing change in my life whether it's on the stage or on my mat. Just as everyone I have my good days as well as bad. Recently I find myself in a new environment, newly married with a new job all in which are blessings so how come I find myself internally struggling?

I came from Los Angeles where I was surrounded by culture and nature and always something to do as well as other people I could relate to as a spiritual woman. I came from working gig to gig singing in clubs and coffee shops at night and teaching yoga by day. I came from traveling the world experiencing the exquisite and the majestic. I came from pure romance like you see in the movies.

Where am I now? I'm in a small beach town filled with tourists and chain restaurants along the bible belt working consistently in a show singing and dancing. I'm newly married to the love of my life living in a large quiet apartment on a golf course. The days come and go and for the most part look the same and my husband and I have moved out of our super romantic stage into everyday living.

I find myself daydreaming of the past and complaining that I'm bored. I find myself fearing the future that it will be mundane. Why? Well I've never been one to sit still and now that I am I have too much time to think. In a way its good, It's an opportunity to witness where I'm at (so to speak) and create what I want but at the same time I torture myself with "how it should be" or "how it used to be", consistently avoiding what joy it is to be in the present moment and recognizing the beauty in what I have right now because I am so grateful for everything I have. 

The truth is no matter how much each day may look the same its forever changing. Myself as well as the people in my life are changing and I'm finding it's important to love them for who they are now and appreciate the moment for what it is now and not what is should be. Of course this is a daily practice, even a moment to moment practice to with the flow and ride the wave.

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Hug Time!

In January I relocated for work from one coast of the country to the next after 4 months of traveling and meeting the love of my life. I have since been acclimating to my new environment, making new friends and nesting in my new home. However I am now under contract for a year and my fiance is 4500 miles away until we can figure out how to get married. We see each other every 2-3 months. As you can imagine this is challenging for the both of us because we love each other so much and just want to be together. During this time of separation we have realized the importance of touch. Have you ever gotten into an argument with someone you love and not been able to hug them after you've made up? Have you ever seen or heard your other half sad/upset and not be able to embrace them? As I'm sure you know, it's a difficult task. It's the hug that connects your energy. It lets the other one feel safe and confident. Hugging is the most natural way people show affection when showing love, celebrating or mourning. After months of being apart my love and I make a point to embrace each other in a super long hug that seems to comfort and reconnect us.



Not only have I found the hug I receive from him a comfort because I've missed him but because my extent of human contact is next to none in my new environment as I shift to adapt to my new surroundings. There have been many days I feel a hug would make me feel so much better. Recently one of my cast mates was feeling under the weather and she expressed she wishes she had someone to hold her while she got better. I told her I know exactly how she feels. To be held or hugged is such a healing process.



There have been many studies on hug therapy that confirm having daily hugs in one's life increases confidence and productivity. Here are a couple articles I came across the importance of hugging.

http://www.smartrelationshipadvice.com/the-importance-of-a-hug/

http://www.lifepositive.com/Mind/personal-growth/hug/hug-therapy.asp



Family therapist Virginia Satir says, "We need 4 hugs a day for survival. We need 8 hugs a day for maintenance. We need 12 hugs a day for growth." I have to say I agree with this concept and considering I know I could use a few more hugs a day I will be testing this one out ;)



Now go hug someone!